## Enlightenment? Someone says: [[Enlightenment is not an experience.]] It is so easy to go down a rabbit hole... nothing but words?! Whatever we say is concepts, ideas, beliefs; if we are lucky it keeps us entertained for a little time, but then "me" is restless again. "What am I really looking for?" is such a [cool question](http://satchitshanti.com) ## What do I really want? What makes my heart swing... "Whatever comes, goes..." "The belly of the mind is always hungry." "Excitement is a scam of the mind." Mr. Jesus says: "In me you have peace, in the world you have tribulations." It can easily get messy when I use words you don't like or define differently. Back to here and now: What I really want is to feel comfortable in my skin... isn't it? What else means anything in life, if I cannot be comfortable as-is? ## Relaxing without being lazy Most of my life I believed that objects make me happy: food, shelter, clothing, knowledge, status, security, relationships, entertainment, bigger, better, more... Since I better understand (or oversit) the nature of mind, suffering, reality... my nervous system is more relaxed and I can simply enjoy what is. Unburdened by the old sense of lack and needing to become. The major shift that happened – as a gift of Life – is attitudinal, not circumstantially; and interestingly circumstances tend to resonate according to attitude (not-two). "As ye sow so shall ye reap." "As above so below"... yada yada? ## What am I? Conceptually I am a human being, a male, a husband, a father, a friend, a consumer... Different roles or relationships, depending on the viewpoint, the circumstance. But what am I experientially, right here and now, without going into thinking? I simply am! No doubt that I am! *Who could say I am not?* But what I am I cannot say. Nothing missing! If I want to suffer again, I simply reactivate the sense of separation and the thinking mind happily and obediently provides a rich narrative of should, would and could. ## Me or I am? Mind loves to make sense, to put things in-formation. According to my concepts "me" is a mental construct and "I am" the Presence of Awareness; not-two. "Me" requires thinking and feeling to take shape, and "I am" aware of the mental images rendered through thoughts, feelings, perceptions. Two loving, practical, playful concepts for first-hand exploration: "I am" not what I observe. "I am" not to be found in body-mind-world. ## Me-Bubble We can believe whatever we wish, but believing is limited to our mind and its conditioning. "Know the truth and the truth sets you free." The 'truth' is not accumulated knowledge, the 'truth' is not another, like a Jesus, a Buddha, a teacher. Disclaimer: believing things is easier than inquiring into the nature of reality. When Jesus says: "I am the truth", "I will never leave you nor forsake you"... this "I" is not a time-bound person, but Awareness, Consciousness, Life. "God is Love", "in him we live and move and have our being". Without love those words are just empty blah-blah, but in the [Garden of Friends](http://GardenOfFriends.com) I can risk to relax, and experience myself as I am. --- Maybe those are enough foolish words for right now, I want to spend some minutes on the couch. If you like, sign-up for email updates at [do-be.me](http://do-be.me)